well. here it is. the end of may. something i've only been talking and thinking about for the past 5 months. i'm not sure where time went but i guess it doesn't matter because its gone and i'm here.
this month i graduated from the university of georgia. woo hoo! its exciting yet sad all in one. i had both a business school graduation and a school wide graduation- and of course i went to both. and i didn't cry at either one- i mean i got teary-eyed but i held it together. and while the terry college of business ceremony was great- i had the dread of finals hanging over my head the whole time. but, may 8th, after everything was finished, was a glorious day! i can almost say after may 8th, all of my fear and sadness about leaving uga was gone... almost. when something ends so perfectly (and yes, i use perfect because the day could not have been any better) i know its the right time to move on. while i'm still learning all about the Lord and His love, it was evident to me on the 8th. He knows what would make my day perfect and what would make my transition easier and He made it happen. i know, without a doubt, i was meant to be in athens for 4 years. not 4.5, not 3.5 but 4. while the chapter may be ending, and its very sad, its the most comforting thing to know its perfect timing. while i'm still adjusting to being an alum, i know i'll always be connected to uga which is more than i could ask for.
which brings me to the next chapter of my life. who know where i'll be in 3 weeks/months/years or what i'll be doing. i won't lie, its been a rollercoaster this month. what to do? where to go? who to be with? while most of my questions remain unanswered, i'm trying to hold on to the fact that the Lord is consistent. He is steady. He is in control. even though i would like to be master planner and have things "under control" in my life, this is apparently not His agenda. recently i felt like i had some kind of control on my life, just to realize that i had lost myself in the mess. i'm not even sure i'm making sense, but i can't really hide it, because right now there isn't much that does make sense. and this is good, even when there is a large part of me that hates it. and while this may seem like complaining, i am here to say its not. its merely just a reminder for me (and maybe you) to relax in the truths about the Lord. while i'm hating this season now, i know its only good for me and only good will come from it. and thankfully, i'll get a job somewhere and somehow decide where to live. He is making a path for me, even when i can't see it.
i pack up and move out in 3 days. its going to be hard and there will be plenty of tears, but knowing everything has been perfect up until now i have faith knowing there is more to come in my lifetime. when i think about my life at uga (i'm visual) i see all of my bumps in the road and all of my great adventures. at the end of the day, i wouldn't change a thing. which shows me, once again, to go with the flow of this season and enjoy. so, here's to enjoying life, even when its incredibly frustrating.
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