grateful

yes, i know. its been so long since i've last posted something. my bad. i don't really feel like there has been much to post about but really i haven't made time for it...

so, i just received an email about my terry college graduation. it was another moment of reality slapping me in the face. here i am writing down important dates in my planner and forwarding those dates to family because i'm only 2+months from graduating college. how is this even possible? how have four years flown by this quickly? the Lord has been teaching me a lot about His love and about trusting him. perfect timing, right? honestly, i have a hard time understanding His unconditional love...that no matter how hard i try to find a job, He has one for me regardless. the past few weeks have been humbling and eye opening. i'm learning more of who i am and what i like. and recently i have come to realize that i, rebecca, am an oxymoron. you may think thats weird, but its completely true and i'm so comfortable with that reality. i love many things and they kinda contradict one another, but its who i am, who i was made to be. i am extremely thankful for who the Lord has created me to be. He created me to be unique and knew that i would love being unique. its comforting to know that God knows me better than myself...which means he knows where i'll be after may 8th, even if i don't.

i'm a big planner and all i want to do is plan the next step of my life. but, i also want to enjoy where i am right now and i am also very grateful to be in this exact position. if i think too hard about the reality of leaving athens, i am immediately sad. but if i think too far into the future, i'm immediately overcome with fear. both of these are because the Lord wants me to live in the Now. He wants me to enjoy the people around me, the fellowship, the last moments of college, and He wants me to enjoy learning about myself and who He created me to be. i am excited to be here and i'm excited to start something new...oh, whats that? another oxymoron. its where i'm comfortable- so i'm thankful to be here.

until next time, stay classy y'all

-your oxymoron friend.