house of cards

okay, i'm supposed to be working on a paper so i plan for this to be short... we'll see.

as i sit here, working on my last paper as an undergraduate, my music is playing. personally, i find radiohead to be wonderful studying music. after the song reckoner, house of cards follows. i got this cd back in january of 2008 (thanks david) and one of the first times i studied to it was in jittery joe's at 5 points. i remember that day/night like it was yesterday and when house of cards just started playing, i felt like i was back there again. i thought something along the lines of "oh, yeah that wasn't too long ago." not only did this memory happen over 2 years ago, but my life was completely different back then. while at jittery joes, with marie, i was studying accounting. it was my first full semester as a pre-business major & i was being a good student studying on a saturday night. it was also my first time studying at the jittery joes. i was also only a sophomore in college. i had 2 full years of school ahead of me. as i listen to the song/cd now, i realize (again) that its the end. i think at this point, its not so much sad as it is weird. my roommate was packing up her room today. what?! her room won't be there the next month while i'm here hanging out and working?!? its just weird. its also weird when i have run into people this week, because i don't know when i'll see them again. its the strangest and saddest part about saying goodbye to people. i love meeting new people and i know they aren't gone forever, but when is the next time?

i gotta get back to this paper and try to not get lost in the reality or the future. idk where that leaves me...