growing up.

i have an interview tomorrow. thankfully i'm not nervous about it, but as i get ready for the drive tomorrow (for the interview) i realize what i have done to prepare for it... my hoop nose ring is gone, my coral-colored nail polish is off as well. all my belongings are now in a black "business" purse and my heels are ready to be worn. don't get me wrong, i like wearing business clothes but i can't help but wonder: what am i sacrificing now for an uncertain future? i guess what i'm saying is that i love being unique, i love having quirks and differences. i love that other people are different too...but preparing for this interview, i had to put all of that aside and look how the world thinks i should look. as things around me are changing quicker than i can even process, where have i put myself? i walked in one of my favorite vintage stores today and found killer vintage sunglasses. i thought they looked great on me- and they were on sale. but i didn't buy them. to be honest, i didn't know what the world would think of them. i'm embarrassed to admit that i let the world dictate my actions like that...but its what happened. this is one more phase of growing up that i'll have to adjust to. what does it look like to be unique and quirky in the business world? i almost want to ask if its okay to be quirky in the business world, but i know it is okay. what will it look like for me though? will i get a job where i can mix vintage pieces with my modern suit? will i work in an environment that allows me to be comfortable in my oxymoron state? i want that and more than that, i want to stay in the now and not begin conforming to the world because i think its the responsible thing to do... 3 months ago i would have bought those great sunglasses, but why not now? maybe i should title this self-reflection time...but i can't help but blame it on growing up.