stand still

i hit a bit of a stand still on the blog. after a few days, however, i have a few things to say...

i am currently in a weird time in my life. so many thoughts and emotions flowing through me its hard to keep up. i dont know what to focus on or keep my mind on... i'm hoping spring break will open things up and allow me to see the now. i pray that the Lord will show me what He wants me to focus on...i'm afraid none of the things i am thinking is what He wants me to be spending my time focusing on...

i love living in the south. the past few days men have gone out of their way to keep or open the door for me. its a small gesture but they make it and it is awesome. sometimes i enjoy being taken care of in the most simple ways. so thank you, southern gentleman, for showing you care.

i have realized this semester that i have an irrational fear of walking into the men's restroom. on my first real date back in 8th grade, i got to the movies before the guy did and because i was so early i hung out around the outside of the movie theater...i was also so nervous that i walked into the men's restroom. i was mortified! i don't know why i think its such a big deal...but those bathrooms in the MLC always mess me up so i end up triple-checking to make sure. anyways, its weird i know, but i figured i would share that random tidbit about myself. enjoy.

isn't it weird that we go through phases at different paces? its great and needed in this world but i currently want new music... this sudden burst of interest comes at totally different increments in my life. its good because while some people are content with their music, others will be re-vamping their library. i've realized this semester, as well, that some of my favorite time spent with God is listening to "secular" music. it speaks to my heart...it comforts it and humbles it in a way words and silence can't. this is another quirk that God gave me at birth. i am thankful for it though... i do, however, need to become more comfortable in silence.

tonight was my last home basketball game. i will be completely honest and tell you it was an emotional few minutes when i realized it was the last one as a student. i sat there remembering where i sat in the stegeman coliseum for the first time...it was in aug 25th (or something) of 2006 and it was a pep rally for football, also known as first friday... also, on monday i had the opportunity to call high school seniors who had just been admitted to UGA. one girl was super sweet...both of her parents had attended uga, she had already sent in her commitment deposit and she was super excited to be in athens in the fall. she asked what year i was and quickly asked "oh, are you excited to graduate?!" i told her that i'd love to be in her shoes again...she didn't seem to really understand but how could she? i know its weird to people, but i hate change and i completely dislike saying goodbye to people. thats what the month of may will look like to me... its good, healthy and inevitable, i know. but it'll be hard. this is truth.

enjoy His love- live it out.
-rebes