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okay, so i'm currently at work and trying to get things done but i just can't. i'm going to try to blog-it-out but i only have 10 minutes, so we'll see...

the big dance performance that i'm in is this friday...while rehearsal went well on monday, i have become more and more stressed throughout the week. not only am i worried about it but i have loads of other stuff to do this week. somehow all my school work has piled up this week and its crunch time. add in the fact that i want to be looking for jobs and planning my sister's wedding and you should begin to understand my feelings right now...oh, and did i mention that i keep receiving emails about the fact that i'm graduating and only have 3 weeks left as a UGA student? what?!! how can this be? either way, this is truth and i need the Lord to show me how to handle it all, because He knows how i don't handle stress well.

speaking of the Lord... i'm reading Crazy Love again with the two girls i disciple... its a great book but while reading chapter 4 today, i couldn't help but reflect on my life up to today. the whole chapter is about Lukewarm Christians and what their lives look like...of course i have those tendencies which make me frustrated... but this whole semester i've been learning about the Lord's love. He loves me because He loves me because He loves me... i've realized this semester that i tend to get caught up in the things that i think i "should" and "should not" do...but after reading this chapter, i see there are things i should be doing and many things i should not be doing. as Christians, we're called to be In this world but not be Of this world. this is something i have really thought about more and more as i get older, knowing that i'll really be in the world once i enter the job market. what it boils down to, is that fact that we should desire to be like Jesus...we should desire to do what He asks of us... and at the end of the day we can strive for that desire or we can rely on the Lord to give us this desire. its all interconnected and doesn't always make sense but the Lord is constant and this is the truth i need to hold on to. in a life and world of change, the Lord is there and never changes. this fact is true comfort for me. this week, not only do i need to be asking the Lord for big things on April 9, but i need Him to help me see the important things in life and where my time should be spent. i know growing closer to the Lord and glorifying Him in all that i do is a good start, but i need His grace to help me while i grow in my walk with Him.

ahh... this is only the surface of my mind. so many questions and thoughts. happy wednesday, y'all!