choice

so, its tuesday. this tuesday has just been "one of those days." i hate to say it, but its true. i had a lot due today, and didn't feel prepared for much...i have lots on my mind and its been threatening rain all day. as i'm typing, it doesn't seem like much but its just "one of those days." and the worst part about these kind of days, for me, is the reality that its a choice to let these days get me down. i know that its a choice. i know that i can change my mind set...but these days make it that much harder. its these days that tempt me to avoid praying and asking God to help me. i don't want to ask Him for help... i should be able to handle it on my own, right? (wrong.) obviously this is far from true but its what i tend to think. so this adds to the theme of the day and it cycles through. i need to get out of this cycle, even if it is awful weather or rude customers walk into the office. the Lord is consistent. He doesn't change. He is the same today with rain, that He'll be tomorrow with sunshine. add it to the list of things i don't understand about the Lord...and to the list of truths I need to hold onto daily. He doesn't give us more than we can handle but it seems He likes to push us to the edge. probably so we'll re-focus on Him, which is where i tend to fail. so, as i type this blog and try to forget about the worries of this day and the days to come, i am trying to re-focus my attention, heart, mind and thoughts on the Lord. He is good. He loves me, regardless of today. He has purpose for me. He can help me.